2011 Holidays

Last holidays was the busiest holidays in my life. Mainly because of my studies. The first week of holidays I spent on preparing my assignments. That was very tough time. After that busy with school work and preparing for exam. I didn't even have time to go for holidays. In between still need to attend course. I think next time if I'm not on duty I must ask for excuse.
In the middle of December I was busy with Christmas and preparing for exam apart from getting ready for school reopen. I was very stressed when encountered some problem with the time table.
I couldn't progress with my work. But thank God finally the problem was rectified and resolved. I was able to finish my work before the first staff meeting. But I had less time to do my revision.
29 December was my final day of exam. Right after the exam I went straight away to KL to attend my niece's wedding. The 4 days away from home was the only time that I forgot about my work and studies completely. It was the only 4 days that I could have the peace of mind. But upon returning I had to face the reality. Had to start working for school reopen. Thank God that my Semester 2 hadn't started yet. Not only busy for school reopen but also busy with preparation for CNY. It seems I'm busy throughout the year. LOL
I just pray that God will strengthen me through these 4 years. I'm starting to count down. 3 and a half year to go. LOL It's not easy. I pray that I will not sacrifice my health for that. I was not feeling well after the holidays. My BP was not stable. My emotions was not stable too due to some incidents that happened. I was not careful to handle my emotions. Need to be more disciplined. And also need to take good care of my health. After having some problem only I realize the importance of good health. Not only physically but also mentally. I must always remind myself to trust God for I can do all things in Him who strengthens me. I also need to learn to find joy and peace in God.

Assignments

Finally submitted my assignments. 1 day before the deadline. It was a tough time. I spent weeks looking for information and materials. But I didn't have time to do mainly because of busy with school activities. Imagine how busy we were by having 4 big and important programmes within 17 days. We didn't even have enough time to finish our work before school closes for holidays. Everything was so rush. But thank God finally it's all over.
I did my assignment during the first week of school holidays. I was supposed to go back for duties. Thank God another PK exchanged the duty dates with me. I could spend the entire week staying at home concentrate on my assignments. Finally I finished 2 assignments just 2 days before the deadline. I spent 2 last days doing the last assignment. I was astonished by the speed I did my assignment at the last moments. LOL
It wasn't easy to study part time. Maybe my study method is wrong. Haha....Hope it'll get better in the days to come. Now it's time to get ready for my exam next month, 18th, 22nd and 29th Dec. After that will be the end of 1st Sem. Pray for me. Though it's holidays I still need to do lots of school work esp preparing for the next school year such as yearly planning and time table. Before that I need to do the teachers' assessment. These are not easy and time consuming. Pray that I can cope with my work and studies. Pray for good health too.

Decision

Until yesterday I was still indecisive whether to accept the offer for further studies or not. This is because I have a lot of worries and uncertainties. I already got the news a week ago but still haven't replied yet. I was still seeking God's will and guidance.

This morning at dawn prayer I prayed over this matter again. I think the Holy Spirit prompted me and convinced me that my God is so great. He is greater than my worries and problems. Nothing is too great that He cannot solve. Flashing back how He took me through all these years I shouldn't have worries. It is my God that sees me through my difficult times. It is with His help and strength I manage to come this far. Without Him I would have collapsed. I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me. Phil 4:13

After the prayer I have peace in me. No more worries. Now I have confidence and ready to face the new phase of my life - study part timely, at this age. :)

I just click on the 'accept' button and printed out the offer letter and all the documents needed for registration on 1 Oct 2011. I'll go to SP for registration. My first choice was UPSI because the learning centre is in Jitra which is nearer to my place. OUM was my second choice. But I got the second choice. My HM suggested that I make an appeal but I just leave it to God.

Now pray for me. Pray that God will continue to strengthen me through these 4 years. Pray that I'll be able to cope with my various commitments - school, family, church, studies etc. Pray that I'll always remember His promises and draw strength from Him whenever I am weak. Pray that I'll be able to graduate after 4 years, together with my son. LOL

Thank you God. In You I trust.

PPG Program Pensiswazahan Guru Ambilan Khas 2011

PPG (Program Pensiswazahan Guru) Ambilan Khas 2011 - this is the course that I applied for. After postponed for several times, now I got the results late last night via SMS: "Tahniah! Anda ditawarkan PPG Ambilan Khas 2011. Sila layari laman sesawang KPM mulai 13/9/2011 untuk keterangan lanjut. "
Now I only know that I got it but don't know the details. I have to prepare myself to study again after so many years. After leaving teachers' college I have not been studying except for PTK. That was only studying no assignment involved. Now I have to do assignments and study for exam. Don't know am I able to do it at this age? Hahaha..... getting older and forgetful. I also must be very disciplined to cope with my work and study and also house work and family. Not forgetting the various ministries that I'm serving in especially Church School and Chinese Ministry. Please pray for strength and wisdom as I continue to walk in Him. As what my daughter said if this is God's will He sure will strengthen me and guide me. So I must know clearly that this is His will for me. :)

Our God is a faithful God

Last week was a rainy week. The rain started on Thursday and it rained the whole day. On Friday we went to Pantai Kerachut, Penang for hiking then to Logos Hope - the biggest floating book fair. It was also raining. We hiked in the rain but thank God we bought disposable raincoats at RM2 each. While we were on our way to the ship Logos Hope it rained heavily. But when we were getting down from the bus the rain turned into drizzles and stopped eventually. Thank God for that. We were not caught in the rain.
The rain continued for the next few days. We were planning a BBQ for Yi Hong's thanksgiving and farewell on Tuesday 30 Aug. Yi Hong is leaving to USM on 6 Sept. Just one day before somebody suggested that we changed the venue to somewhere which has biggest shade instead of having it at our small house. After considering the suggestion we decided to have it at our own house and asked everybody to pray for the weather. I fasted on that day too.
On Tuesday morning there was still cloudy. I kept on praying and asking God to cast away all the dark clouds and grant us good weather. It had been raining for 5 days. I believed all of us need sunlight. Finally we could see some sunlight and felt some heat.
In the afternoon I took En out for lunch and I ordered a glass of drink. I drank it without realizing that there's some jelly-like thing inside the drink. My response was 'Alamak, got something inside!' She knew I was fasting so she teased me, 'Tonight it's gonna rain!' LOL. I don't believe that.
And I thank God for that day that the weather was so fine without any rain after 5 days of rain. I also thank God that so many people helped out to make the event a successful one. We had this function to give thank to God who is so faithful to us. Thank Him for Yi Hong and the help that others rendered to him as he grows.
I would like to thank Su-Jian and the mum who helped to prepare the BBQ food. The food was so delicious that everybody enjoyed it. Thank Samuel, Joyce and 2 brothers who came early to help. Thank Samuel, Timothy, Joseph, Su-Yen, Edward and others who helped to clean-up.

Countdown

5 more days...to know the results of my application of further studies. I was counting down on FB and one of my friends asked me if I'm excited about this. Actually I'm not really excited. It's more of uncertainty. I don't know the results I can't plan many thing or make decision. e.g I can't give any answer to my head whether to continue marking or not. If I ever gets the offer, when is the registration day? It may clash with my son's registration in USM on 6th September.
Studying at this age is not an easy task esp when it is done part timely. I need to make a lot of adjustments. Knowing the results can help me to plan my work and schedule.
I just want to know the result so that I can know what to do next!

P/S: The results has been postponed to 9 Sept. Another 2 more weeks. :(

Accept or not?

Remember last year I wrote about I decided to quit marking papers in my article It's Time to Quit?
After resting for a year things changes again. After that incident I didn't do anything about it even though someone asked me to reapply or at least tell my head or another superior that I want to continue marking. I think if it's God's will He'll definitely open a door for me. I don't have to work it out.
Just now my head called me and asked whether I would like to continue marking this year? She gave me some time to consider. I was not sure of God's will. In addition I just applied for further studies and the results is not out yet. I don't know whether I'll get it or not? I don't know if I get it will it clash with my study? Will I be able to cope with my studies, marking, school work and house work? I don't know what is God's will for me? I don't know..... a lot of uncertainties.....
Please pray for me. Pray for God's clear guidance. Pray that God opens the way for me.

Btw if you find any mistake please feel free to correct me so that I can improve my English. Thank you.